Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Lingering demons

   I'm trying to get to sleep. I ate a whole pizza today, I don't know why. I just decided to. Not that I've been starving myself and that was the binge. I just said Fuck it... I'm eating a whole pizza because I can. I don't exactly feel good now.....

Well that is a great post Mop... How if I recount my bowel movements. I don't know if it's that or that I continue to shake off the demons from the past 2 years. Regardless they have for me this evening. I forget what I tell myself about demons. They have to be faced, more than just looked at... they have to be faced.

I don't even know what that means right now. I had a good day, I'm just exhausted. I'm not used to that at 8pm. I want sweet sleep to take me.... Too exhausted to fight the demons right now.... and a little too bloated.  I'd fight them but I don't remember how.....

Some soda and some Gin my have to do....

More tomorrow....

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


As twilight breaks on this day, I am struck by a wonderful euphoria. I have nestled in for the winter it seams. My Vinyl albums playing in the background. A Dirty Gin Martini at my side. Sitting on my Futon reading a book. I picked up 'God is not Great' by Christopher Hitchens. I'm Slowly draining the martini.

Hitchens writes of Marx, Restating the often misquoted statement "religion is the Opiate of the masses"

Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, and the soul of soulless conditions. It is the opium of the people.
The abolition of religion as the illusory happiness of the people is the demand for their real happiness. To call on them to give up their illusions about their condition is to call on them to give up a condition that requires illusions.
To summarize the theme. Religion is the Suckling of a child, the continuation of which prevents the child from grow up. The infantilization of the child.

When I was in college I asked one of my professors "Is there somewhere that this is done better, is there a place where higher ideas happen and are discussed?". He had no answers for me, where was Hitchens at that time?

Some brilliant moments as I continue to indulge in such wonderful ideas. Not bad for a drunk.

Saturday, December 08, 2012

Thoughts on snacking.

.... We all know the drill. I have been horrible for the past 2 months. I told someone I went and got a "Whopper" from Burger King, they were horrified. Those things are as large as your head. 8 inches across, and easily enough to give you heartburn for 2 days. In my defence, I do have to avoid it being 'the forbidden fruit'. It was Nasty.

I remember a time when I used to eat soup, vegetables, and Fruit. I remember having "Snacks" that were insanely reasonable... I also remember drinking tea and tons more water all the time. Those were the days! I also remember passing out and waking up on the kitchen floor... Those were the supplements though, I think.

I was watching a documentary on Evolution. I wonder if separate species of humans may develop, those adapted to eat a Burger the size of your head, and those who are not.


Being and Writingness

   I would very much like to get back to writing some stuff..... Some stuff. It's the holidays  I guess the last time you caught up with our Anti-superhero I was trying to date more. Well that has gone super well. Just to let you know that is sarcastic. As I like to tell Julie, "what are you talking about, it never goes well, I only date crazy."
  Well, here I sit weeks left till Christmas and it is me and a Martini. I have finally declared that Gin has finally done me in.... Superman has kryptonite, The mop has a Dirty Martini.

Hey, I wrote something.