winter duldrums

Ugh... the mens final of the Australian open is on tv right now... I've felt awful this week, I want to say "This is the worst I have felt in 5 years" but then I wonder... is that how I feel every winter? this is the worst I have ever felt... and it is just seasonal.

I don't know.

I probably need to focus on writing about things that go on out the the world, describing real things I see and feel every day. I'm just sort of happy to be writing every day.

Some un-musings

I was watching some commercial... it was about "buy this toothpaste... or your kid will have rings in his nose"

I know it is a theme with me.... but where are all the "Marry a religious Zellot, and end up tied up by a sadist(just for Julie; in the un-consensual way)"

Where is this in our modern folklore...

The universe

I have been ... well it feels like the signal to noise ratio is getting high, in my life. I am not sure what I am being told or where to go from here.

Too much noise not enough signal.

still trying to write

I'm still trying to write something every day, I'm hoping to get back in the hang of it. I just feel like Y'all do when we do these things like 30 days of riding or writing...

I see how it is to just get overwhelmed with life and give up.

Oscars

The nominations are out for the Oscars. Two years ago I sat down and tried to watch all the nominated best pictures and as many of the other films nominated in the major categories. For those that remember, I was not impressed. As I remember there were two films I enjoyed, and the rest I found "Watchable". I just wasn't sure they were worth my time. This was the year of "Hurt Locker", "avatar" and "up in the air", both movies I thought were good...

.... With all the money tied up in these movies, I think I just expect more.

.... Either that or I'm getting old.

Sick 2.0

I slept most of the day. I'm lucky, I tend to be able to wallow in my illness, most of you go to work and suffer through it... just trying to get by. I get to spend days just .... Wallowing and complaining... thinking about how I don't feel good... how it is interfering with getting anything done... Hoping that it will pass.

I seriously watched movies and felt sick all day.... tough life... strange I am complaining... I don't know what I was trying to write here.... I'm just trying to write every day. I would hope I would try and write something of use......

I had this thought... if Romney doesn't win or doesn't win the presidency... when the Mormons roll out 2 more candidates, will america get them confused, will they say "oh, it's another mormon brunette Ken Doll, how is this one different than the last one?"

Huntsman

The world may be ready for: a black president, a Hispanic president, a Woman, Maybe even a gay one ... but I don't think the world is ready for an "in the closet gay Mormon" one.

Did I just say that?

Being sick

I've been very sick this winter. Somehow I just can't escape the germs. The most probable reason is all the breeders in my life, and their Germ carrying Spawn.

Besides being debilitated, the worst part of being sick is not knowing if you just need to Nut up and Deal with being sick and move on or if you just need to lay down rest and accept that you are sick.

Around and around that thought goes through my head.

Lliam

Those that are "In the Know" realize that I am into Battlestar Galactica right now. Don't ask me why. I have been asking that for over 2 weeks now, and have no answer.

This is how bad it is; One of the Original/God Like Creator/cyborg/Organic machines/ Cylon/Skinjobs/toasters, who is sleeping with one of the Created /Rebel /cyborg/Organic machines/ Cylon/Skinjobs/toasters and having a baby with Her, decided to name his child Lliam. The Original Cylon's Ex wife then Confronted Lliam's mother with the fact She nor the child were special, whereas the father wanted to name their child Lliam Except the Original cyclon's origional cylon wife was barren. At which point Rebel/second Generation Cylon under the stress of this new information, then miscarries. As Original dad/Cylon was crying in the arms of the guy from Stand and Deliver(Edward James Olmos) AKA Loren Green... No wait Cpt Adama, they mentioned that Lliam was short for William. Clear as Mud?

William is a family name on my Father's side. My father's middle name was William, after his father. I said to myself, Oh.... If I had a kid, which will probably not happen, I could name that child William and call him Lliam, Continuing some kind of Family Legacy.

I then realized I was continuing the legacy of a Drunk Irish Wife Beating Asshole. I then said, I can then challenge my child to not live up to his Legacy. Then I thought, when he does become some kind of drunk asshole he could then blame me for naming him after his drunk ass great Grandfather......

Sweet..... only 4 episodes left... Now I wonder... are the original cyclons just glorified test tube babies.

Way more than 3 lines... or 5.

ducks and geese and chickes better scurry

As I sat on a bridge in the park yesterday, I saw a couple of ducks mating. It seemed as though the male pushed the female's head down under the water during the act. I wondered, "How many Animal mating acts are so Sadistic?". Then I wondered if I had even seen it in the first place, or if it was just a manifestation from my brain.

(I'm trying to just write a few lines from my day, and trying to do it every day)

Long time no blog

Ugh.... well I'm feeling bad today... new diet.... new conviction to lean down....

I believe I am as heavy as I have been in..... 4 years.

I was lamenting the year I was on a solid good diet and about christmas time I had to buy a new belt because my old one didn't have enough notches... Sure I was irritable... but

I hope I have the conviction to get things back under control.

Y'all haven't had any updates... but I have very good reason to have let things go.... Yet I will admit... there is no good reason....

Sure this post sucks... but I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things... and posting something is .... well it's something, maybe not better than nothing.