Diet update

I'm doing well... thank god for scales or as bad as I feel I'd quit. What is this 3 weeks.... I rode my bike today, but I want to die right now.... if the scale didn't say so many good things... I'd be frustrated.... I at least don't feel like a walrus. Is this how it started.... I feel like a walrus... Not a good feeling....
no really... see If I can have a salad before bed....
wow... 17 days in....

I'd talk about all I want to eat... but it wouldn't help... hmm.. not really wanting a pizza... or a burger... I did break down and ate 4 hamburger patties covered in cheese... wish it was cheeze....

Force of will

Time to put some of my mojo to work.... Get back to feeling better by shear force of will... and good decision making. Put the rubber to the road, so to speak. Time for healthy food... good decisions and exercise....
Lets get it on!!!

Becoming a Walrus

I can remember when it started. a few years ago fit and strong, every month... getting worse. constantly swearing "ya, I"m doing it... I'll get there" Somehow it doesn't happen. Trying to wrap my head around long suffering fat consuming rides.. I don't want to suffer... I'd rather somehow enjoy it.... somehow changing who what where when I do...

   Last week... well didn't want to because it would make me too tired... this week I"m sick... they are not excuses... it's just what it is... but here it is... becoming a walrus...

dear god...