Late morning gap

Well I checked the weather.. and chance of rain after 3...

I'm not sure how that is possible since the only storm on the radar is just passing...

so... aparently there is a chance later in the morning...

For me to make sweet love to my bike...

hmm I'm not sure how comfortable I am with that phrase....

but fuck it, I'll go with it..

How did your day go.....

Well... I didn't make it out.. Clean Kit or not....

Too much wind.... Too much chance of rain...

It's not that, I'm afraid of a big rain....

and let us point out that, the rain for the past month has been super silly....

but it is that without a few good rides.... My spirit will be broken...

My spirit is easily .... Sucked right now... The last thing it needs is 2 hours of being blown Back and Fourth... or 2 hours of being Pissed on... and I don't just mean a slight rain...
wimbledon on Monday

Clean Chamois/ Dirty Chamois

I got up this morning... and I need to go out and grind out a ride...

I've gone to check my kit.... and realized that most of it is in a hamper....

I Can't remember if I put it in the hamper because I Cleaned it already and needed to put it withe the clean kit... or if I still need to wash it....

well no reason not to wash it again...

One would think I could just smell it and be able to tell.

Congrats

I've been struggling with writing some kind of post to congratulate Mike Booth on becoming State Road champ.....

Good Job...


sorry, that is as exciting as it gets

The big ride..

I've been worked after "My Psudo big ride"....

tough stuff... body like Jello.... It's a ton of work for it....I'd probably be doing myself a favor if I would just focus on miles...

Breath... Breath... everyone should be everyone's muse..... we need as many Muse as we can get... maybe life is to have a muse....

Crying time again

.... I just had one of those rides where you sort of Limp back and once you stop, you want to bust out in Tears in the shower.... except you realize you are too fucking tired to cry....

And there is that Certain Special kind of walk that is the Providence of cyclists.... Kind of like someone has been trying to shove a Bike seat up your ass... all while turning you into a question mark....

I realized what the pain in my back is..... Finally I'm starting to stand up in the seat... and apparently it takes some back muscles.... and some core stregnth... apparently I don't actually have those muscles......

.... I hate woody Allen

Oh! Blog

5:20 am.....

I wish on Friday night I could sleep more than 5-6 hours....

I deserve 8 and 9 or 10 would be sweet!

I'm working up my energy for some kind of 30 mile ride or something....

Guess I should check the weather...

FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!... NO NO NO NO!!! I need to bike in the morning....

"Showers and thunderstorms before noon, showers and thunderstorms after noon."

The weather her is the SAME!!!! how in the hell.... do we get 2 weeks of rain in June!! or has it been 3.....

The real irritant is that my medium light jacket just barely fits my midsection... Fucking Idleness!!!

I'm still not happy with my Heart Rate.... I'd like to see a nice sitting heart rate in the low 40's on a consistent basis.

Just an update... My ass hurts less, and my back.... but they do hurt... but it's now the tendons that are .... "Trying to build up"...

of course I've put more of my "Normal Hills" back in my route, which is part of it.... More stress on the body....

Oh!!!! WTF sometimes!!!! WTF!!!

Caught out in the rain

I was reading blogs this morning...

First of all, I read a story that blogging is dead. Apparently it's all about Twitter. "I ate Cereal this morning...." "Ashton Kutcher is a Douche".....

I took off yesterday, on the bike... I looked out and figured the storm had missed Salt lake...and all I was dealing with was some high wind...

Right at my turn around point, It started POOORING!!! Let me just say, it doesn't rain here. For those that have ever experience "Real Rain" like Seattle Rain, or Monsoon Rain, or East Coast Rain... Rain that makes you think "Umbrella's are useful" as opposed to how we look at Umbrellas in utah... that they are an interesting Accesory for Fassion.

But after about 5 minutes it was actually Raining. I was lucky, because I decided to actually grab my Rain jacket... Since WTF do I know... and I figured there was a chance we would get a Light rain. I ended up stopping and sitting in some shelter for a few minutes... Not that the weather got better, but at least I mellowed out, and warmed up... got the jacket Tightened up...

One of the things I like about "How I Roll"... is that I don't tend to let the weather stop me.

So... Market update... somewhere here is my final high... and we should get a segnificant retest.

After some sleep

My sitting heart rate is 45, The lowest I've ever seen it is 38

sitting heart rate

78..... LOL

Heavy legs

I couldn't do a big ride today. I got out and I'm in trouble.... Low Heart rate hard to get it up there and No ability to Kick....

Looks like I'll be mellowing out for a few days...

Oh... and how do you find the member of "Dog the Bounty hunter" who is stalking you.....

Look for the person in a bad wig........

Monkey Off his back

14 Slams...... Career Grand Slam...

Roger Federer


It will be interesting to see if he will relax and just Play..... from now on.....

Vegetables

I saw a 10 minute documentary/story about how much food is waisted... How because of a slight blemish in a tomato, Grocery stores throw them out, and how wasteful it is. I'm not sure about this... but it seems correct. Some of the Mexican Groceries, seem to be picking up some of this "Blemished food"... and you can find it there, and it's cheaper and Less Wasteful. But you do have to suffer the unsymmetrical tomato.

Western Risotto

Protein powder must be blended.......

As part of recovery..... I'm going to work on the Perfect Risotto...BTW... a rice not a pasta..

but I want a Western.... even Rocky Mountain version....

I'm thinking Bacon.... or maybe I can find some local Ham......

and I was thinking Cheddar..... maybe even Pepper Jack...

Maybe some peppers....

and later on in the year we will see if we can pull off habanero....

I'm tempted to distill my own Habanero oil....... doesn't that sound dangerous
ooooo Habanero EVOO

back to some vitamin B

I'm such an irritable fucker.......

but after 3 weeks... I can officially ride faster than people on mountain bikes...

Good lord.....

I even dropped a girl who was riding too high a cadence on a hill

Bemoan a bemoan

So, I'm Bemoaning about Sarah this morning... or late afternoon.... saturdays are rough for me to get going..... there is a ton of web surfing and avoiding all the shit I need to do... but I digress

I need to do a bike ride... I'm not sure if I need to nut up and do something serious... or rest up and do something serious tomorrow.... and I just tried to get her a little more dialed in... I've taken up listening to books on tape on long rides... I have a great one about Thomas Paine... Good stuff, I'm all about the age of reason...

The funny part is that for about 10 seconds I'm all "Maybe it's just a trick..". then I come to my senses.... and Find it ridiculous I'm still bemoaning it. It certainly is the emotion....

but then of course, Now I'm Bemoaning my bemoan.... there should be a special word for that, in the english language.... Redundant-Bemoaning... maybe re-bemoan... or Re-Moan.... Or pathetic... or Whine Like a little Bitch....

so... Soft Bones

What a wind today.....

I took yesterday off, my in home HRM needs a new battery so I'm not sure if I hit over-training...

but so... we are at 3 weeks and I've only taken 2 maybe 3 days off. I need to tear through the bike again and get it "DIALED" finally...

Great day in Mens SemiFinal at the french open... I'll not ruin it for you... but both matches were great.. .and should be repeated all evening.

So... being "Unfit" every once in a while I cheat at some of my routs.. and end up on the parkway... I also hope to see some MILF or just some attractive woman.... Just to keep the mojo going... It dries up .... You know?...

So.... that fucking parkway... for those of you who don't know I'm a clear advocate that road bikes have no reason to be on the parkway... it's irresponsible to do over 15 MPH down there... and seriously.... People can't even drive if you hadn't noticed... let alone when they let their kids ride the parkway....

So there is a group of 3; mom dad and the 5 year old kid..... and I'm behind them, can't see ahead of them so I have to wait till I can so I can pass....

Sure enough we all go over the hill.. at the speed of 4 MPH, I look ahead and start kicking.... 3 kicks and I'm passing mom and dad..... and suddenly... Who Swerves 7 feet to the left, out of the lane, and pushes me into the dirt...... a 5 year old kid.... I put on the breaks, slide to a stop, scare the shit out of the kid.. and myself...

so... I get my shit back together... BTW 4 or 5 years ago, I got laid up for 2 weeks with a cracked wrist when some 14 year old completely ran into me at about 15mph.. fortunately he broke his ankle... fucking moron.. but that accident threw me about 15 feet.


so.... I get my shit back together, and pull up behind them again, the coast is clear...
I shout "Ok.... I'm going to try this again." start passing much slower this time...
"Stay on your side!"... the minute I said this... the kid starts to swerve again.... I slow down and start screaming "STAY RIGHT"..... I said it 4 times till he moved back into his lane, and I passed.....

"Thanks" I said.. only being obvious that I was being sarcastic...

Once I had a 5 year old who was passing me, the opposite way.... and I could see how poor they were riding... I stopped and pulled off to the side, and waited..... THE KID STILL RAN INTO ME!!!!!

kids... eat them while their bones are soft!

DAMN!! david Carradine died!!

David Carradine died on Wednesday in Bangkok, where he was shooting a film. The 72-year-old's nude body was found by a hotel maid sitting in a wardrobe with a rope around his neck and genitals.

How about an update...

I guess it's been 2 weeks, and this is the third... I need to come up with some cross training, and start worrying about over training...

of course all this from a guy lucky to do 10 miles a day...

Did I tell you I had my first Official Flat... Tell you what a douche bag I am, I left my tire on the front lawn of an Arbys, with an empty Co2. My biggest issue would be getting the flat confused with a fresh tire, and then having a flat as a replacement. I've completely busted my tire levers, and need some new ones....

This fucking sport and the constant need for new gear...

I'm feeling good... but I'm damn tired all the time.... I get this great nap at like 7PM, after I ride and have done recovery... maybe even dinner.... But you know Tired.

Happy Birthday

For some reason I can't explain... I know it's someone's birthday today......

happy Birthday!!

Expedition Africa

Not sure if anyone else caught this on the History Channel....

It's like backpacking with 3 people you never would backpack with.

Pasqual(to start off with, everyone has a crazy name), who is an expert Navigator/Expedition leader.

So... 2 days they make 10 miles. On a 4 mile hike, they are literally half a mile from water the whole time. They have to argue 3 times about if they are close enough to the water. It's like Hiking with my sister.

Then there is some Euro dude who is a "survivalist" only he seems to be a pro at getting himself killed, which is how he has survival skills.

First they take off and the survival dude insists that a group of 25 has like 3 gallons of water. Which Pasquale insists is a mistake.

3 miles out of Town... they are out of water.... WTF....

So then, they are trying to navigate the second 4 miles, the survival guy is like, "how will we know how far we have gone."
Pasqual "I know how long my strides are 1743, is a mile."
Survival guy "We will all count, and we will average."
Pasqual "but your strides are different length."
Survival guy "You don't know how long my strides are!"
Nature Chick "Well maybe I know!"
Pasqual "How many strides in your mile."
Nature chick "You just assume I don't know, I know a lot and maybe i know"

Pasqual gets annoyed, since she still hasn't answered.

This is all to navigate 9 miles.. 4 miles a day......

991 miles to go.....

I'm not pro pasqual... but it's obvious the survival guy is a moron..... I'll take the survival guy who doesn't get into trouble, than the survival guy who is always in trouble....

they are not going to make it.

not sure I have much to report

pulled off the 20.. my back was killing me... but that was before I even started. So... More base I guess....

Ivonovich is out...

Maybe we will see a suprise on the woman's side, Safina is the Favorite, but maybe a Serina Sharapova stand off. I just don't think sharapova is up for it.... yet.

And Nadal Folds.... Preasure too much for that 5th French... I was hoping roger would take him out.

there was a Highlight thing of Pete Sampras. I had forgotten that in 90 he went through, Lendl, McEnroe and then Agassi. There is a good reason to have hated him.... and that when you saw a match it was roughly 2 hours of sampras throwing Aces.. Not to detract him as a great Athelete, and Tennis Champ.... but I do have to say it was fucking boring..

Bagholders... Let the Daemons Chase!!

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another day another ride

I just wanted to spin the legs today, but ended up doing an entire route. Starting to feel "OK". But I need to work on a base.... so... it looks like shooting for 20-40's is going to be the goal for a while...

If only I could start into the wind... then come back by kite...

So... market want to do one more move... 94.5 on the spy, but it's been messy so... even a false break out above 93.0

French.....

Nadal/Hewitt today. Not many exciting matches today, but over the weekend we start gettin down and dirty

Base Building

I guess that is what you call it when you drag your ass back at 7 MPH for the last 3 miles...

Then I was walking 6 types of funny, I think I need to take a crap... and I have no idea how I'm supposed to sit on my Dick for 2 hours... Let alone 4-8....

was this supposed to be fun....

Super Carbo's

There was a story about the amount of pasta being served at a restaurant. It was ridiculous, I can't quite remember, it was like a pound. The one that gets me is that thing some of the pizza companies have which is pasta in a pizza bowl... or bread bowl...... HOLY FUCK! Then there is that Pizzone

It's the size of your head...

I pulled through one of my short regular routs, felt fine... only slightly wanted to heave. I keep thinking about some of the tougher routs I have.... Shit..... I guess I have to gear up for at least.... an attempt at something..... either that or some real miles this weekend... maybe a weak ass 40 or something..... I just don't have any weak routes at 40 miles.....

And I'm having a hard time getting that final Tweak on the bike... And I can tell I'm only a few months from a new cassette and chain.

arg... 2.0

I was doing some research on my diet.. apparently there are some thoughts to regular carb intake all day to replenish energy.... This isn't quite how I do it, For the most part I try and reduce Carbohydrates unless its for recovery. Certainly I get away with more, during the day... I hadn't thought about having some at regular periods during the day.

My legs have felt like .... Lead. Though it's a bit deceiving since they are mostly jellow, so Lead is a step up...

Jebus

What a Sack of Poo....

I fell asleep, and woke up an hour later... and my body feels so awful I want to vomit. I realized that what was sore was my entire "Core".... Holy Cow!!!....


If I wasn't so tired I'd Cry!

Bike Riding Hurts!

But my back hurts more than my ass right now.... so that is progress right?

I was short of 20, but seriously my legs are cooked at mile 3, so.... I'm not sure if its too much to get stressed about.

I have a complaint... Why the hell do they put bike lanes on the worst roads. 900 east -700 east is horrible to ride. 7800 south is a horror show. And why are construction signs built so they are perfect to hit you in the shoulder.

Maybe some of the road planners need to realize that on a bike, I don't want a Freeway.

The open

So.... Sharapova looks to last another 2 rounds, It is good to see her back.

Ivonovic is Doomed.

Safina kicked the Crap out of her first opponent 6-0 6-0

I don't even want to go into this...


a Prime reward is given to a racer AFTER THE RACE!!. A hand up is a Hand up or feed. If I win a prime.. say a Cannondale Bike at a sprint, I'm just not sure you would pick it up at the sprint point.

Let us also talk about rule 1g2

1G2. Organizers shall agree that the safety of participants and spectators is an essential consideration in organizing a cycling competition and they shall take those reasonable acts necessary to promote the safety of participants and spectators.


4H14 Feeding:

(b) Irregular feeding Rider: $15 fine Other licensee: $35 fine

They could have been hit with an irregular feed fine... Would the riders have preferred that?

(e) Illegal or dangerous tossing of an object
First offense: $20 fine Subsequent offenses: $20 to $80 (can be applied to team if rider cannot be identified)

I'm not sure if it could be defined as a Toss, but Toss does have a very Loose definition as a word.

How about

4H1
(a) Behavior dangerous to the rider or other competitors;

Now...the only defense I can think of... is that "Mostly" feeds from spectators are done at the riders own risk.

I can't see any other way to define it other than a feed and if you define it as a feed 3D6. Feeding is not allowed unless specifically authorized by the Chief Referee that is very clear.

I also wonder if there are some rules about interference.

Newt Gingrich wants you to be afraid

I just saw 30 seconds of Newt on Meet the press. I Cannot take that bullshit. Again we are arguing torture and gitmo.....

There is good old Newt... "America Should be Afraid".


Isn't the point of government to make us not afraid, and that doesn't mean Nuke every other country into submission.

The point is to have moral Authority... To say "WE ARE BETTER THAN THAT! WE ARE THE GREATEST NATION IN THE WORLD! WE ARE NOT GOING TO BE SOME THIRD WORLD DICTATORSHIP THAT RUNS AROUND PULLING TOENAILS TO GET PEOPLE TO CONFESS TO SHIT THEY DIDN'T DO!"

These bullshit morons, like Newt and Cheney, Want you to be afraid because it keeps you under their thumb. So they can literally raid the Coffers of this country.

Newt is such a lying bastard, I've seen him so many times, Make shit up, completely distort what someone said. And when he is caught he is like this slippery worm, and just moves onto the next T.V. show and dumps the same Lies on you again.... WHY... Because to him "THE ENDS JUSTIFY THE MEANS... HE KNOWS WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOU... AND YOU SHOULD SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DO AS HE WANTS!"

Newt is an unremitting disingenuous amoral Jackass. And all these assholes have this delusion they are Jack Bauer... they may as well pretend they are Superman or Batman... These are Illusions... Fictitious Heroes from our imagination. Real Hero's do the Remarkable in places where most of us do the Unremarkable. The Remarkable thing, the Heroic thing, is to Rise above Torture and establish our country as a Moral Leader in the world, and not some Banana Republic, where Corporations place puppet dictators to keep the Bananas flowing(THAT IS WHAT A BANANA REPUBLIC MEANS, and it is the opposite of democracy, and the opposite of capitalism... since it leads to anticompetitive monopolies.)

I've spent the past 3 weeks listening to these conservative dumb asses talk about how obama is turning America into a Banana republic... and it just shows what morons they are, since that is what we have had..... and it is what we need to get away from. "The BANANA Companies running the Country.".... Where the fuck these people learned economics.... or FUCKING HISTORY!!!!! THAT IS THE SHIT THAT MAKES ME WANT TO SHUT DOWN PUBLIC SCHOOLS!!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU PEOPLE LEARNING!!!


but that is just my opinion...

Dear Blog

.... Weirdness. I have ridiculous insomnia. Not so much insomnia, just an inability to sleep unless I'm ... unless my eyelids are like stone.

What to write... what to write... I have some great stories.

I'm still very scattered, with more time in the Saddle, I think it will correct... I wonder if I shut down the mp3... it will help.

well.... more tennis

where was I...

I guess I have to push to 20..... It's obvious I have to put as much time in the saddle as I can. My ass only hurt today, as opposed to absolutely killing me.

Today... well it was the second day I wanted to vomit...

but when I clipped into the pedals, my heart rate was in the 90's.

Yesterday was rough, there is something about being on the bike, makes me Less satisfied with my life. I guess the rest of the time I don't have enough energy to be irritated.

I worked on a new route today, I think I need to work on some new ones.......

Well, that is a stupid post...

French Open

Mauresmo was beaten, and young American hopeful wayne odesnik... who probably will soon be referred to as hopeless(he did go 5 sets).

hewitt struggled

I'd talk about Querry, verdasco, and Gulbus but it would bore you.

Somebody pointed out how I refuse to spell peoples names correctly...

Ivononvic is cooked.... she struggled today. Returning champion. Seems like being Pretty may just be enough for her. but how many pretty tennis players that can't play, can we stand?

I'll still cheer for her.

So.... Players to watch....

Obviously the favorite is nadal in the mens, and we should see something out of Sharapova in the womans side, Jankovic will again come up short, I'd like to see something out of safina I'll say she is my favorite, but the most likly result is that again one of the williams sisters will pull it off. But as they age and struggle, I find myslef more willing to be behind them.... and don't forget Bartoli.

Federer, obvioulsy that is where I am. but Murray needs to have his day soon. But if you arn't paying attention to men's tennis. it's all about the battle between Nadal federer murray and djokovic.

Monfis, Aleze Cornet, It's always good to watch the french players at the french open...

Up and commer Bethanie mattek, goes up against Venus tomorrow... but we havn't seen much improvement out of her game from last year..

Ask then answer....

"ask then Answer. Who are we and what is the point?"

I pulled off my shortest regular rout, the old fall back when I just need to keep the legs loose.

It Pounded me.... Buried. and it's 10 miles of Rollers.

So, The Lotion.... Have you ever sat in front of the isle of the Grocery store.... and had to ask. What kind of Lotion am I.... What do I want my skin to smell like.(Ok, I would say... Ass or Saddle or ManJina... but I have standards for this blog.) .... So... Vanilla? Peaches ? Cocoa Butter (WTF is Cocoa butter?) White Tea, Raspberry.....


so, there went 20 minutes.

I umn, just barely got to the point where I could accept that I'm a Berry or Herb person for my Shampoo.... But no Fucking Fruit....

List

Last night when I crashed, I was barely hanging on.

I realized how much of the other shit I need that I don't have.... So a list

1. Lotion for my sore ass... Antibacterial... Aloe
2. Juice... Recovery has been, fucking Gatorade.
3. ... I imagine I need more shit than this..
4. This is a stupid list....
   

Ride 3

Holy crap.... And my fucking seat is so fucking hard. I need to get.... do some reading, to make sure I let my ass heal.... Or quit being a whiner.

I think I have my HRM dialed in... is it a problem that I'm doing 10mph at 90%... JK... Uphill... But a small one.

I'm going to sit around like a bunch of bitter Queens, and tell Turbo how to lose, Right?

Owie....

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My ass hurts, my back hurts, my nuts hurt... and after 4 miles my legs are like jello....

When clipping in my HRM showed 110...... Sweet, that goes down to 80... I'm in business... Of course getting it back to 60 would be nice....

and I have no idea how to run my HRM....

I was thinking I'd be up for a 20 miles this weekend... but I'm starting to doubt it... and I have to not push myself too much... And I should just enjoy it.....

It is supposed to be fun right?

and the Joy of turning around today, and realizing I had been riding with a tail wind ....

I forgot that feeling.

HEHEHE... I paid $7 each for some tubes today.....

It's like flying!!!

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Well... chased it all down... blew the dust off my tools.... and out I went.... Damn my bike is fast. as much of a fat guy on a bike as I am, and Lack of real fitness...

suddenly I was 3 miles out....

and had my first flat.....

good stuff...

No Salvation yet...

Maybe tomorrow, but according to the shipping crap it's not even in the city... but if you have tracked a package... that doesn't mean anything.

Hey... after the fake out on friday... we got my bounce....

Joy! or not....

I just want my salvation in the form of bike parts...

Salvation

..... Well, salvation by bike kit is coming in the next couple days.... If I had known how important it was I would have hurried the shipping... Who Knew.


damn... all I have

bla bla bla

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So, I read my Poetry friday... and realize that the theme wasn't clear... I could correct it but.

The point was, that I was seeking salvation threw an object... My bike... and the new gear coming for it.

and in the end... I then tied it into the new toilet seat I just picked up...

Point "If I'm looking for salvation through an object.... why not a toilet seat, instead of a bike..." of course that was sort of lost since most of you seek salvation from a bike and it seems reasonable to you.... as it does to me.... but it's Ironic.

my new favorite saying is "Bla bla bla"

Follow up for art

So... I threw a 80/20 on a market top last week.

I have to hedge. There was a downswing, and now it may want to bounce. The next day or so will either throw out a new upswing, which should be a final high. or the trend will continue.

but instead of 80%... I'm more in the flip a coin, state of mind.

Poetry Friday

in honor of Flahute... who is always doing poetry Friday... and I'm just a part timer.

I bet this will be more Prose than poetry.

I feel like....
If only I can get back to the bike regularly.
things will be ok again,
things will be good again,
things will be normal again.

I imagine it's a False hope,
too much energy being put into an object,
and activity.... a Flight of Fancy.

I guess we have to have hope right,
Mine of the 2 Wheeled kind.
The get out and drop the hammer,
Suffer the fatigue,
Suffer the Pain,

Well, if the bike doesn't do it,
I do have a new Toilet Seat!

Kitchen Nightmares

I'm watching too much T.V. ...

I'm addicted to Gordon Ramsey's Kitchen Nightmares...

To summarize, a restaurant is going out of business, and Gordon goes in and tries to turn it around.

It kills me every time.... The thing that is running the business into the ground is usually the thing that has to go....

Some eccentric piece of shit idea... which the owner thinks makes the business special, is usually what is driving business away..

I think what they don't understand is that eating is Utilitarian... You want good food for a good price.... Not a Prize Moose head above the bar.

But.... the failing business always tend to be to beholden to the..... Apricot Potato's... and the moose head over the bar..... if they could face the reality, they wouldn't need help.

If there is a Wrestler..... I've always liked Jesse

VENTURA: It's drowning. It gives you the complete sensation that you are drowning. It is no good, because you -- I'll put it to you this way, you give me a waterboard, Dick Cheney and one hour, and I'll have him confess to the Sharon Tate murders.

Some Rhyme

... Ok Blog... I want to spit some Rhyme... as the rappers say....
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only I suspect.... there will be no Rhyming.

Well... I went to the grocery store, The fridge is filled with Healthy foods. Tons of fruit... Yogurt... etc.... I think My mind says we are about to get healthy again.... No more Potato chips for you.

I had Pizza all weekend... that is how my diet has been messed up... and yes... Potato chips..

You know.. not as good as one would think...

Everything is starting to line up.... Stars are Aligned... Bla Bla Bla... time to get Uber Healthy again...

It's been a tough Slog.... I know I have about 400 new grey hairs.... and Seriously My heart just isn't beating like it should.

The Pizza gave me Heartburn.... And to be honest... I'm not in horrible shape... but It isn't good... I'm sure my lungs aren't clear....

The Western stampede tickets are on sale... I need to sort that out....

All the bike gear is showing up soon.... that will make me happy....

anyone think I'll be smart enough to take my bike to a mechanic?

this is for Art

So.... that felt like the top....

Umn... We have to be careful of some kind of bull flag, then one more high... but I'm like 80%..

but I was a week out on the bottom.... *Shrug*.... Good enough for Hand Grenades.

Knot of Abandon

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What I once wrote with abandon.... you say...
why can't you just Throw some down...
What once was easy...
Well that muse is tied up in my back... it's in a knot.
It's there or in the knot in my neck.

Well... What the Fuck else can I write.

Of course I haven't been out on a 6 hour bike ride in a while....

I love movies made in Los Angeles, they put all these lame extras in cop suits, and they can't hold a gun..... and it just looks stupid....

Yep.... this is as interesting as it gets....

No Joy

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I'm trying to give some updates.... Finally some progress in the garden... Final plantings of peas, Corn... all tilled..... I get to spend tomorrow creating a new compost pile.

This is a Horror, I'm addicted to Brittan's got Talent....

Unknown just posted something solid... I'm going to have to reach for something... just to... not be Embarrassed.... Speaking of embarrassment... have you heard of this new cycling blog.



Well, I best not just stare at this cursor flash all night. There is a lot to worry about in our economy.... "No Shit" you say. I have a great mentor these days, very amazing. The things that are worrying arn't so much what people are worried about... Most of you people need some medication. The thing that concerns me... is how Lazy you fuckers are... If you don't know what blog "The Big Picture" is... Well, Barry was bitching about how Wachovia employees couldn't post comments. There were some very slick comments... most of which were "I hate to tell you this... MR. Fake Economist" But one of the great challenges we are facing is the loss of productivity to the Internet.... as People spend their day surfing Huffington Post/ Pollitico/ Facebook etc.... instead of work. I kid you not, every company in America needs to shut down or very much control what employees can surf... and reading news.... That is what you do in the morning as you drink coffee at home.

Don't you fucking lie to me and say "I was doing it on a break", seriously people are sitting at their desks half the day, surfing. Then we have the people bitching about the United Auto workers.... Want me to tell you who isn't surfing all day? the UAW. I'm not sure if you have ever worked a "Line" or even seen a line, but I kid you not it would be tough just to watch some guy put in front Windshields all day, let alone do it. When I was a kid, I worked at a Print shop.. and the Collation machine broke. We spent 72 hours busting our asses putting together 30 page presentations. It Ain't fun, and if you work at a job where you can surf all day......

But that some of you think you can get away with this, or that your bosses aren't putting a boot on your neck to keep that from happening. Just don't kid yourself, we aren't as productive as you think. And if Americans would Buckle down and get to work... We may see some "prosperity".... But that about half the people I know waist hours everyday "Surfing"... and think they can get away with it......

So... big news... Sarah... the one I wined about for 3 months years ago... well she is getting married... There is more for me to toil about.... I don't know.. maybe I'm over it...

Solomon Burke-None of us are Free..



Free your mind and your Ass Will follow.

ScaterFunk

Report from Interzone 23....

I want to read some William S Burroughs tonight... Funny, UnKnown... asked about me, It's not that I've been in a Funk... but defiantly today has been 'One of those days'.

I had my first minor injury of the season. I'm doing my best to get back to some form of 'superhero', Minor Calf-tendon maybe... but 2 days off... test it out... repeat till things are good.. Which mean... walks...

Sorry... this is just going to go in 30 directions... if any.

So, I was feeling some funk.... and somebody mentioned Daniel Day Lewis to me, I though... YA! I feel like watching "There Will Be Blood".... 10 minutes into it, I realize.... Yes, this is how I feel.... but that isn't a good thing, and now I'm about to wallow in that feeling for the next 2 hours.... It also reminded me of T-Bird, and Unknown.. I need to check up on Gila.... See how my brain is going everywhere.

I then put in "Stranger than Fiction".... Which was good... but I can't seem to focus long enough to get through it yet.... But it reminded me of Julie... and I wonder how she is doing, she has been quiet... I worry, she should email.

SO..... Beyond that.... Last few weeks I've just hated what I'm doing..... It's been a long and hard fought game, and I'm sick of it... Also the volitility will drop out soon... and then much of the "fun" will be over. The last few months I've sort of understood why Art is so irritable... BTW we are either going to get a small correction here, or a bounce to 9k Dow, and then we will pull back and we will see the boring come out.

The Garden.... things are comming along out there, I need to Till again, peas are in, chamomile is coming up. I'm going to start some corn soon. there are some seedlings going....
even that seems to be hard to get focused on.... you know... there are things to worry about.

I was .... Beyond all that... It just... Life should be simple... I don't know why it isn't, or why it isn't for me. some people just don't have a concern in the world and move around like a ball in a pinball game..... Seems like a way to be.... Sort of wish it were me. I was reflecting on how uneasy things are... It just seems like anything that one does, has nearly no value.....

I was... there was a point where I felt like maybe I could find a life writing some stuff, But.. even writers are getting Hosed these days.... I am hoping at one point people get bored with Ashton Kucher's facebook and Twitters..... WTF!!!


I was going to see Wolverine this weekend, but it .... I didn't make it to an early show and then the late shows were.... I'm sure filled with kids, I'd like to kill.

It's this kind of post that makes me ... You know... Not write....

 PL GC TIME @ TIME BIB  NAME TEAM HOME TOWN STATE LICENSE
 1 13:26:56 0:00:00 96 Leipheimer Levi 0 Mellow Johnny's 51027
 2 13:29:57 0:03:01 4 Armstrong Lance 0 Mellow Johnny's 1917
 3 13:30:14 0:03:18 165 Zajicek Philip 0 Fly V Australia-Successful  ENCINITAS CA 90090
 4 13:30:59 0:04:03 142 Swindlehurst Burke 36 Bissell Pro Cycling salt lake city UT 51227

.... Ok... I"m about to say this.... and I mean to say (not that there is anything wrong with that).

So, here goes:

DAMN!!! BURKE, You can beat all thos Homos!!!

Are you a "Toxic Asset"

I think much of America, would be surprised to hear that the mortgage on their home, or the debt on their credit card, or their car.

That that debt is what is being verbalized these days as a "Toxic Asset".

I very much agree that many of you are Toxic.... but I think you would be surprised to know that when "They" say that. You are what they are talking about.

Is that the Gold Coast?

Report 22 from interzone.

Funny how the mind works, I'm not sure what the catalist is. That I downloaded the most recent U2 Album, or something I saw on C-Span.

I was watching C-Span today.... Ya, I'm addicted to it these days. And worse i'm watching 4-5 hours of Other news a day. Let us just add the rest of the day reading newspapers and my unhealthy dose of TV buisness news. I'm watching C-span, and I see the charming woman standing down the press corps talking about Afghanistan.
Which reminds me of this charming woman from my youth. What do we do when hit with a fit of nostalga, well we cyberstalk. Dr. charming Young lady, is a professor at an eastern university.... Well that is going to kick off a few hours of Nostalga and imagining how my life could have been. BTW... she was my mother's favorite.

3 mistakes of the great depression

It's very clear to every economist on the planet. I know that economists are borderline on actually being Scientists. But.... There are 3 classic behavioral mistakes.... and these are mistakes driven by our Lizard brains, in this time of crisis. A time when we need to do what is hard, not what is easy. It's like eating your vegetables, though they seem unappealing... they are very good for us.

1. It a time when the Velocity of money is contracting, Worrying more about the national debt than getting money/blood circulating in the economy.
2. Allowing large institutions to fail, Sure it feels good. Problem is it causes a crisis in confidence in the economy. Our financial system is a confidence game... No confidence, No game. Though that sounds like fun.... It won't be. It's how you get guys wandering around the country in box cars looking for work.
   
3. Protectionism. which has a tenancy to set off trade wars and further constrict global trade.
   

There is this very stupid argument about "what we are doing is going to create a stagnant economy." Unfortunately there is some truth here, my issue is the Tense being used. WHAT WE DID, IS GOING TO CAUSE A PERIOD OF STAGNATION. But economic consolidations are NORMAL. The idea that the economy can just go straight up all the time, is the thesis of a child.

Then there is this thesis of china, and currency. I'm not sure who is tracking what is going on in Europe, but besides Germany, there is limited economic stregnth in europe. The lack of central economic focus in Europe, is the weakness in the EURO. creating a global currency is silly, it will cause the same weakness in curency. the stregth of the dollar is stability of government, and central economic focus.

Our biggest worries are about Social stability, and global social stability.

If you get a chance check out the newest episode of Frontline on the national Debt. It's a concern... but you also have to understand that Debt to GDP was highest just before one of the largest economic expansions in US history, Post WW2. High Debt=bad economy is not a reasonable corollary.

or go to PBS

The Unquiet mind

Report 21

My Twisted Mojo.

It's 3am... I've decided that I need to accelerate the news flow into my brain. I was laying down thinking how slow television is as a data delivery advice. I started having visions of some kind of plug in to stream it straight into my brain.

Just some in-site into my unquiet mind right now. Let us just admit it... the 70 degree temperatures were like dating a Mormon girl.... she almost started to put out.. Then she went to church on Sunday, and changed her mind...

It was like a spine breaker, I was getting back to the old patterns, then suddenly it was cold and I refused to break all the cold weather gear back out.


In the other part of my brain. I just started listening to Joshua tree again. It's like being in highschool.... it's nice...

Ok... I'm about to just explode with random fleeting ebb and tide going through my head.... I don't know this is like a Writing and mental exercise... so bare with it.

... Every body is so FUCKING CRAZY right now.... 3 weeks ago everybody convinced we were sliding into some kind of Marxist.... bla bla bla... Now everybody is convinced everybody is in the bag for Illuminati/goldman sachs.
It's going to take a few weeks for people to regain their senses... but it's like post traumatic stress, we are going to have to slowly work it off, realize our irrational fears were getting the best of us... Our lizard brains, throwing us off the Merry-Go-Round.
Both sides of the debated deeply deeply disturbed, convinced the revolution is coming... of course they will be ready to revolt as soon as the reruns of "Friends" is over. Or they are happy to get involved as long as their favorite sitcom isn't on... Moreover.. people more willing to type it out on a computer than actually take to the streets.... YA... I'M SAYING ALL YOU ASSHOLES ARE MORE LIKELY TO SIT ON YOUR PIEHOLE THAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT 'IT' WHATEVER 'IT' IS.

so, seems like in the ebb and flow, normality is returning.... but still there is the memory of what was, and the images that flew through our brains about what 'might have been'....

you have to remember, it's not like broad swaths of the population is starving, and they have many options in a country with so much cheep food, and with such broad resources...

and don't get me started about how crazy all you people are about the chines... it's like we are still working off the cold war boogyman....

Hang on everybody........ it may not be the change you envisioned... but it is change, and change is the only constant, and change is almost universally good.

Planting schedual

SO.... Planting time.

I was asked about planting....

here is a proper vegitable planting schedule from the USU extention... the usu extention office has quite a few resources for planting and gardening... In fact I believe you can actually call them, and they will answer just about any question you have... they also have seminars.

BUT... Mid march the first things can go in... you can push some stuff in on the break of Indian summer we get in Late Feb... My chives are already going, and I have some chamomile comminb back from last year... but...cold season vegies can go in right now.

Rhubarb
broccoli
cabbage
kohlrabi
onions
peas
radish
spinach
and turnips

all can go in now.. but roughly mid march

Now late march early april you can put in
Beets
carrot
cauliflower
endive
lettuce
parsley
parsnips
potato
chard..

early may you can put in things that will freeze but that you plant by seed.
first round of corn beans cucumber squash...

many greens can be put in all spring long, but greens get woody as the year heats up.

Report 20

Melancholy,

Today is Heart Rate -1 day. Exciting.. I'm fortunate, I don't believe in any particular universal order, but it seems like on birthdays when I'm grumpy enough. One of my computers fails, and it takes my mind off it.

But, I'd still rather do something else this weekend besides rebuild a computer...

Well Jesus... that is all I have.

The Wrestler

well, I saw when this came out, If I had known it was this good I would have gone and seen it...

It's good stuff

Famous last words

Well Pluss or minus....I am not afraid to hold equites here.
Banks for a bounce.
Semiconductors
Tech.
and looking for developing breakouts in Retail.

Cramer says BUY GOLD

LOL

seems like discouragement to me..

still need everyone to abandon all hope.

people do seem to have worked past anger

Nobody asked me

Report 19.

... Return to Lemon Socialism.

Robert Reich has this phrase coined, Lemon socialisum. The Winners Get Capitalism, and the lemons get socialisum. Socialize the losses privatize the profits.

... I don't mean to burst anyones bubble, but there is a "Put" option on the market that our government puts on it, because you and I are supposed to be able to invest our 401k, and pension funds etc... are heavily invested.

in September, the government went against it's long standing policy of "Lemon Socialisum" and let Lehman fail. They didn't think it was going to be that bad. Check out charlie rose yesterday with Johnney Mack. They just didn't think it would be that bad.

I'd suppose that because we have this policy of "Lemon socialisum" that has been so longstanding, when the market was faced with "Real Capitalism" it freaked out... that was what all of this has been about. So... Obama came in, and reinstated the "Lemon Socialisum" and things may recover.

Is it fair, is it right, is it what we have been taught.... NO... but I think that is how it is.

Let me try and give the other half glass.

if we ran under "Real capitalisum" P/E ratio's would be much lower... and with big companies failing, bond rates would double what we see as "market rates"

*shrug*

So, the new mortage plan... as far as it's effectivness is a push, it's either help homeowners 50% and banks 50% or help banks 100%..... It makes us feel better to help some of the people who Pay the taxes.

I said this.... "I'm fine with all you Breaders having to have your Kids pay for the mistakes of their Grandparents.".... I mean... that is just normal... I swear to god I still pay for my grandparents mistakes, and my parents... WTF, why shouldn't your kids be the same way?

The new Agrigator bank plan..... from what I read, it's actually smart as all hell. The are going to create a fund or roughly a bond, let investors buy the crappy assets with a 'put' option. if they start underperforming it won't matter. In fact they will use the TALF, which has a built in Put with the people who make deposits to it, if the assets start to underperform, they kick them back in the face of the bank that put them there. The TALF can just be where they get the assets for the agrigator. I'm still working on figuring it out. But it means that the investors can pay "par" for the assets, roughly. and no writedowns... if they don't perform.... the loss is the bank's.

I ran a model on how to mark to market a ABS, and even fully performing, mark to market it goes to .50 on the dollar. And that is with no impaired performance.

Report 18 "Animals"

I'm going to try again, see If I can sort something out. It's 10:35, I didn't mention that I woke up with a headache.

I've been sick too, I've broken out in a cold sweat a few times.

I'm not sure I can come up with anything good, I'm blocking most of it at this point... Maybe if I sit down and let my mind go.... It was a stunning day today. Tomorrow it's supposed to be 52 degrees. I imagine you have caught some of this weather over on your side of the Rockies.

I've decided we need to name that Middle girl you have. I know you have forgotten her, that poor Forgotten middle child. So forgotten you even deny she exists.

I may have to look through the record, maybe she did exist and you have her locked up in your attic and now you think you can just deny she ever existed. I think she needs a name. At least for the gravestone you sick fucker, you and your Almond Cookies. And when I suggest that she needs a name, I don't think you get to name her. I get to.

All the names so far have been Banal, I don't think you would agree... I thought Sarah earlier, there was Denise. I was thinking about naming her, using one of my jazz or blues singers. If all else fails, 'Pink' will do, regardless that sounds like a good nickname.

My mind for some reason has been rolling over this old girlfriend I had at 17 or so. Shanna, she had a real fateful thing for me. I didn't realize how bad she had it for me, Or I would have taken better advantage. We spent a ton of time Christmas shopping, it was weird. I should have taken that more as a positive, a girl I could stand to christmas shop with... those are few and far between. How can you know how important that is at the age of 17.

I realized why I have been thinking of her, I purchased Pink Floyd 'Animals' on all those shopping trips, $7 at the bookstore. That was the period of time I started to love animals. I was watching WKRP in Cincinnati, and Dr. Johnny Fever was ending his shift, and was playing 'Dogs', one of the 'squares' came in and wondered what all the barking was about. It looked so Cool, and pleasant... Kick back in a chair, and listen to that album. I did it, and it was very nice as an activity. I even lit a candle, and used to watch the light shimmer off of the walls of my room.

Didn't even know anything about getting High or whatever, it was just a nice activity.

It was a year later that a friend said "You should see 'The Wall'"... and it was fucking amazing, And I realized that the entire album had a Theme. Music was more than some nice notes, or some Joker yapping about his Dog, Car, or wife being shot.... Or some catchy line like "don't worry be happy."...

I think my friend thought it was weird How much I loved pink floyd and I didn't know anything about the Wacky Tobaccky.

All my best, I will continue to fight on.

Report 18, from Interzone...

Some day, this war is going to end

Am I my brother's keeper?

Report 17
... Am I my brother's keeper?

On Fridays, my emotions get fairly close to the skin.

I'm a fan of rick Santelli. But I have a problem. Most of you don't know quite what has gone on over the past few days. There is a rant, which is the basic Free Market rant, of the "Milton Freedman" Free market Economists, or as I call them the economists of Narcissism.

Freedman is an advocate of free markets, and yet he is quoted as saying "There is no such thing as a "Free Lunch". Which meant that you have to pay for things, one way or another.

Free market traders embolden by a foolhardy government that believed in strong deregulation. Allowed Bond traders to create these crazy products that have put the country in great Peril. As they Treated the Mortgage market like a Casino, and ran away to let the government deal with the problems they created. So WE PAY FOR THEIR FREE LUNCH. We created TOO FREE A MARKET, and now we pay. Unless you have 2 definitions of Free.... One can make a claim that "THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A FREE MARKET."

As Greenspan was quoted "There was a problem with the model, We assumed people would act in the self interest of the company." When this was stupid, because People are children, not only do they act in their own self interest, they act in their short term interest.

So, after we have rescued the Banks, the auto's, insurance companies, Wallstreet, Derivatives. Now in order to try and stabilize the mortgage market and try and keep some people off of the street. There is a stabilization bill,;proposed is to help both the banks and the borrowers, by having the taxpayer help pay down the difference between what the house was worth, and what it is now worth. To be honest it makes sense, Help both sides of the equation, not just the banks. and force them to deal directly with the problem.

So, the last few days the free market traders are having a Hissy fit. They are worse than Clickish girls... The worse idea, to them than helping the banks is the idea that we could instead of Just help banks, we help both banks and citizens. This is SUPER OFFENSIVE to these people.


What really offends me most about it, is that simple idea that we need to take care of our neighbor.

I'm not a Jesus guy, or a bible guy in any way shape or form... but the overall theme of the bible is laid out in the story of cane and able:

And the Lord said unto Cain: Where is Abel, thy brother? And he said: I know not. Am I my brother's keeper?

This is the them of the entire bible.... It asks the question "AM I MY BROTHER"S KEEPER?".

So, with all that preface:
Here it is.


In the middle of all of this, there are 10 traders from the CBOT, Standing up in the middle of the floor saying "NO, I AM NOT MY BROTHER'S KEEPER."

And over time, if you ask yourself how we got here. It's because people were asked that question over the past 3 decades and they said like cane:

I know not. Am I my brother's keeper?

Over the next series of years, we will need to ask ourselves that question many times.

Where are we at

16.... I caught a little zen.... Thinking about my coffee shop.... you know, Skanky couch. All the chairs reek of espresso, and Ball sweat...

For some reason I'm letting go with the expletives...

I'm trying to throw some good mojo in Sandy's direction... I figure I best do it or he comes back and starts kicking everyone's ass again.

I go out today, and I have been Craving and old staple, for weeks I've had indigestion. Of course a nice soda can take care of that. I remembered one of my old tricks, you use Club soda, Zero Calories, and you can put juice in it. It's like a reguar soda, only you can put 4 ounces of juice in it and get away with 50 calories..

Well... this post sucks...

Report 15.

I saw this movie 11 years ago. It made me cry like a little girl... No, I didn't let anyone see. Nor am I telling you the movie... Cause you would probably thing I'm a little girl.... but..... No it was not the little mermaid... that was like 20 years ago.... and no, the castle does not look like a Penis.. and you are a perv for thinking that... and Yet.. What the hell do I care.

I had this post about, the loss of a friendship. The missed dinner. The ignored e-mail... Swearing "I'll get back to that person.", then finaly starting to blow that person off. not answering phone calls...... and they just fade away....

The point I was making about the movie... It's weird, after seeing it again, I realize emotionally I probably haven't grown since then, that is unfortunate.

Different kind of life

Report 14

One of the drawbacks of not being able to work on the yard, or have anything more productive to do with my afternoon. I've spent the better part of my afternoon being haunted by a different kind of life...

and it's all one of those "If only I had..." Nightmares.

Never did mind about the little things.

Memories of Green

report 13.

Presidents day. Apparently it was a day to clean ones car, and start cleaning up some of the junk around the house. Assuming ones workplace allowed you to have the day off. So out in the cold, and yet sunny sky... many a worker bee out vacuuming and washing the floor mats, throwing out the buildup of garbage. Clearing new piles of leaves. Cleaning up remaining bits of the Holday lights. Checking for weather damage from the long winter. Soon, yards will have to be Prepped. grass fertilized. Trees Trimmed... There is a long year ahead, time to get on top of things.... Buds have started forming and soon spring will have sprung...

and a new year of green will start again.

Space Time

Report 12,

I'm not sure one could get their hopes up that this report will be about space time. That just happens to be what I'm thinking about right now. Originally, I was contemplating how we tend to Learn new things, and our awareness of new things expands with age.

I had a Mentor, or it sounds less gay if I say "somebody once said to me 'as we get older, and the more we learn, the more we realize how little we know' ". In a way what we learn isn't more, but just a broader appreciation of what we don't know... but isn't that actually knowing more...

I digress..

My next thought Chaos theory, probability models, and psychological deterministic-s...

but some other time... I'm not sure you should get your hopes up for report 13.

the Media Illusion

Report 11

I was reminded today, about how Unrealistic our Media is. The illusion it puts us all under as we lead our lives. As in the 1950's everyone aspired to be Ward and June Cleaver... and It just wasn't so. The torment and strain it places some people under when they can't live up to the Ideal versions of life they come up with.

Of course the one I was reading, was the idea that some guy was caught up in a Hextuple Homicide, then moves the bodies about 50 times... Not to spoil the story.

It's a creepy notion that we all learn all these ridiculously unrealistic life lessons, and try and apply it to our lives.

Report 10

I'm 30 pages from being finished with "Tough guys don't dance." I've been fighting it for 6 months. It's actually fairly lousy, one step up from a Mickey Speilan novel or a ... who the hell wrote the james bond.. Ian Flemming... I bet the Bourn books were ok... who is that? Clive Cussler.. Going to have to look that up, ah Ha! Robert Ludlum.

I had a good distraction going... in fact with the snow this morning, and my fit of cabin fever, I hardly noticed my usuall Friday/Saturday gremlins. And I even noticed that with the shoveling the snow and climbing the walls to get outside... and my escape to the lands of Retail Paradise as a distraction. I didn't seem to even have a chance to ruminate on them....All the way until I remembered how nice things had been... Then Like a sickness it all crawled up my legs and into my gut... felt like curling into a ball and having a good shaking fit.All and all, I seem to suffer some PTSD... Mostly from living what was a very eventful life through my early 30's... none of that today... More like a monk these days, all that is left is to relive that old life.
But I battled on through the novel and there I am 30 pages from the end 371 and I am on 350 or so. Roughly the story is over, we are just tying up loose ends.

Somehow I ended up, as a thank you somebody brought me... I kid you not, 2 liter bottle of diet coke, and like Potato chips made out of apples, and some chex mix.... I guess the idea was that "I deserve some snacks" but since I try and be healthy, the idea was to bring me healthy snacks.

I keep wondering, People think that snacks make people happy, or maybe my perception is that everybody likes to give me snacks and cookies, because I deserve them or because I'm such a miserable asshole that it would cheer me up... Only to me, they make me angry because ... now that crap that I keep so far from my door, is now in my house... I think it's more like the Junkies who don't want anyone else to not be a junky... "here is some Smack" I know you are a junky, but if you ever want some... it's right on your table.

And you can't be rude, and say "don't bring your Crack Pipe over here."... and as some kind of evil Catch 22, because I'm such an asshole I obviously need a hit off the Crack Pipe...

What is wrong with us... or me.... Why ask...

Basso too

Ya.... it was a fantasy that these guys would be gone.

When is ulrich coming back..

Oh... BTW... Floyd did not get his hip replaced after he won the tour de france....

He had it replaced after he had the jersey ripped from his shoulders for doping...

What the hell!!!

I figured Le tour de Happy cows California was starting.

I just tuned in.

Ok.... I'm Agnostic about Lance... as everyone should be about men named lance. I can give you a positive, Either he could get caught... or he could be beaten. Like a bad poker player, he is pushing his luck.


BUT FOYD???!!!! has it been 2 years??? What the hell is going on... Son of a Bitch, it has been 2 years.... Last year was "reclaiming the tour." I guess this year will be "Doper Redux"

Pattrick dempsy is on and he is star struck.... Let me just tell you how impressed I am the "McDreamy(I have this right, he is McDreamy... from some stupid fucking doctors show... ER or Amies anatomy or something.) is star struck to see lance and Floyd..... He also said something stupid.. which was the idea that the field had expanded... I umn the TOC field has always been the strongest, and to be honest, I think it was strongest the first year.

To be honest, the media VS. isn't doing cycling a favor by doing anything but showing contempt for Floyd.

Death of a thousand cuts.

Report 9

Through me the way is to the city dolent;
Through me the way is to eternal dole;
Through me the way among the people lost.
Justice incited my sublime Creator;
Created me divine Omnipotence,
The highest Wisdom and the primal Love.
Before me there were no created things,
Only eterne, and I eternal last.

All hope abandon, ye who enter in!"

Report 8---

report 8

report 8...

I feel like I'm getting to that point where I want to crank out... "the book", you know "the book" that one book we all feel we have in us... spend way too much time devoting our lives to it... Realizing it's probably only interesting to our mother...

Ugh...

that is as interesting as it gets tonight... unless you want to hear about my Colon..

Obama takes it Retail!!

Number 7.

What a bunch of little boys and girls we are.... Like a microwave, it has to fix the problem in 3 minutes. Like a light switch, the first one we try... has to be it.

Or what..... Are we going to sit down and cry.... Are the Republicans going to take their ball home. For 3 hours I listened to them whine about how "it wasn't bi-partisan"... More interesting or important than anything was if they had had their........ scrotum Licked.

And the Democrats, who want to run around saying Nany nany billygoat.... We win....

all these assholes are the reason we are all losing....

Economics is complicated, there are more moving parts than you can count.... More variables than even the most complicated Galois representation.

And just as many opinions as there are assholes... most of which are more about the asshole with the opinion, than they are about economics.

As the Legion of the Emotionally and mentally disabled... AKA Congress, fight this out... it's going to be tough. and they all are going to do things wrong.

My "HOPE" is that they will keep working, and keep trying....

Cause in my life... to Keep on fighting.... is the only thing that works...

Can I get you some Cheeze.....

Number 6-

I think I pulled off eating a half a pound of cheese for dinner, and the charming things it's doing to my digestive tract.... hey, you asked... or maybe you didn't.

You may be asking yourself "why is he doing reports from interzone"....

And yet what is a blog but a report from interzone... The tough part is not booring anyone with stories about pulling Shrubbery...

They say the thoughts of ones day are random... Maybe not so random but just sort of a bubbling of intellectual Leavings. As focused as I tend to be, sometimes my thoughts wander... and as I stripped old wood from my shrubs, making way for new growth... you see when you trim a tree the goal is to "shape it"... make it into something both Natural, and yet Clean and orderly. Keep the growth from being all on one side.

With a shrub you want to clear out the dead growth from years before... you want to Prepare it for the next year, Prepare it to move on...

And in all of this... My mind wandered to Old jobs, old co-workers... Irritable unchangeable ignorant fools. Lacking any awareness of their lack of either speed or quality... in their quest for those same qualities... Truth is, they are more interested in feeding their ego.

But... you know, it's all a struggle...

I don't know where these reports are going... but it's something.

Exterminate all Rational thought

Report 5-

The Centipedes are getting down right arrogant. Sunday night, it would be nice to ... I had a documentary on lee harvey oswald... I'm not big on conspiracy's... I see them as irrational ways to explain complicated events. And yet that a guy who loved communism... May just have a Grudge against the guy who stopped communism from getting a good foothold in north america(cuba)... the thing I still don't get is... What the hell was Jack Rubie's deal... maybe he just wanted to be a hero.

.... but did you know you can get the frames of the zapruder film It's wild to see, at your leasure the last moments of JFK's life... at your leisure.

You can see fragments shoot forward... Not sure how you can pull that off with a shot from the front...

This is a funny exchange... I imagine someone is trolling. but funny when somebody even comes up with an even crazier theory.

Report 4

..... Insomnia... One could wonder why I get insomnia. I was wondering that an hour ago. Then I remembered that I slept in, and drank 2 pots of coffee today. That certainly doesn't help... I'm completely exhausted and can't sleep...

A little over a gallon of coffee.... I just can't imagine why I can't sleep....

14 cup coffee maker, 16 cups to a gallon.. Probably have 4 cups of cold coffee around here, or thrown out cold.. 28 some odd cups... That is a ton of coffee....

We have that Beans and Brew place.... and several of them, I've actually been the first customer... Huge fan of a triple shot latte.... I once drank cappuccino till the back of my Knees Started to sweat and my legs shook...

There was a time when I took caffeine pills until my head was on fire, I had to lay in bed in the dark until the buzz i.n my ears died down and any other sounds Boomed and Echoed in my head.

My name is robert paulson.... and I am a caffeine addict.

Report number 3.

Full day of bush cutting and tree trimming. Yep, it's quite an adventure around here. So... I sacrifice my saturday too yard work. (que the victim status) Don't get me wrong it's good to get some work done, and get ahead of all the work this year.(trust me... yard work is a never ending process). But... do I have to sit and ruminate the whole time about my misspent life, and the misadventures and my misanthropic nature. ... bad enough I'm working my ass off... but then to have my mind filled with .... Bile.

Ugh...

No, not me... this dude has a mini-mullet.... You know, trying to provide a picture....

Report Number 2

From InterZone...

They are the worst on Friday, I can't even come up with a name for them... All I know is that they are the worst on friday. I was going to report that they were something new, But now that I reflect on them, it seems as though they have been here for a while.... or not so much Been here but have been ... Sucking the life force from the marrow of my bones. I don't even have a name for them, I just know they are there.

It's hard for me to even talk about how they were before, or more to the point how they are now. The difficult part is how the have to be Chased away before I can even focus on the rest of the weekend. I'm starting to wonder..... I'm reminded what one of the elders suggested, that maybe if I just sat in a dark quiet room... Let them overtake me ..

Then maybe I could come out swinging. Always best to face ones daemons....
Expect more reports.

It has become one impressive day... and for those of you who don't know... Feb is time to trim the bushes and Trees. For those who have felt locked in for the past 3 months, it's a good start on the year, and gets you outside with some cutters. a nice chair some coffee, start thinking about the Yard/Garden.

Report from InterZone

I guess it's time for a report from this side of the Zone... I guess it's time for our William Tell routine.

I believe, even through the shitty weather I've managed to work out every day this week. I've been doing some Flow Yoga and running. Damn... that isn't easy. That and I'm in Awful shape these days. I am getting fitter.

Hopefully I can keep it up.

What would be nice is a good report ...

Did you know that real unemployment is 13%.... That is people "discouraged" from the work force too.... over one in ten. Somebody reminded me of how most people in our country move from one industry to another. part of the concept of Capitalism is specialization of labor, and yet we have this tendency to have a huge portion of our workforce moving from one industry to another. Spending years training for a job that lasts about 5... Doesn't seem very efficient.

This doesn't get into the numerous "Sketchy" contractors we have.... companies hiring employees as 1099's who really are just employees... without health care or benefits... Companies not living up to their Moral obligation to workers.
Lets talk about Congress.... for 4 months they have known they needed to do some form of stimulus package for the country... Here it is, and they are like "Slow down" we need to do this right.... I guess" right" is to give them 4 years.... Give them that time and they will still build a Monkey fuck of a program.... and btw they will fuck it up so bad that they then will need to then do another package down the line.... and of course they will pass this and go "We are done right!" then down the line they will have to do the other million things they need to do for the economy and will be all.... "Slow down... we are rushing this." they remind me of the kid who does his term paper on the last night.... You know you knew this was due for 3 months... here it is.. and you are cramming for it..

Well Hopefully better reports in the future.

Furthest man from home!

I just watched the whole season of Space Above and Beyond... Ya, I'm a nerd.
um... I'm sitting here, hoping to flush some ... JuJu....

My, seasonal bla's have progressed... They seem like they are boiling over... I guess that is a sign that I'm getting over them.

Fuck!... I wanted to talk about it... I've reached out to most of my "support group", and they aren't helping... so, what is an anonymous blog for...

and yet here I sit stifled for what to write. I've spent most of the past week trying to distract myself And... Well the way I live it's more likely that I just stew in my own juice, than manage something progressive.

Well that is all I have...

Hi all

I guess it's relative.....

Sandy, one of my personal hero's... I imagine he would be surprised to hear it. Well was just blogging about his Sunday, as compared to mine.... As I Literally spent my entire morning watch Federer fight it out with Nadal.... Which was beautiful BTW... Much better than the woman's match. One can only hope that this battle will go on for another 3-5 years.

I also just started my second pot of coffee, wandered around the yard thinking about my garden, and the coming year. Thinking about how I will while away the rest of my day and sandy then goes through the Rough and tumble nature of his Heroic efforts to become a doctor....

It's all relative... (lesson for me, not sandy.)

For those of you who..... are not following the market... Which to be honest, most shouldn't... I spent the last weeks doing some Fairly remarkable Knife catching... For those you know what I'm talking about, I had some Amazing Day trades, followed by some Crazy follow through into a nice bounce in the market..... And yet... I got the Bad Mojo on the bounce, and to my absolute "Nut Grabbing pain" Puked them up(stocks I'm talking about).... It's weird when you look at the market internals, and can't quite understand why you feel like "Something isn't right", Then you have to let them go.

So then I've spent the past week contemplating if my "Mojo" could be off, or if this is just part of the Market Sentiment cycle...

Furthermore.... I guess I'm saying there seems to be "more bad" in the market for the short term. Let me just add in some Good old fashion Seasonal depression, and cabin fever... You have a recipe for some feeling bad for myself, and usual.... "Natural shocks that flesh is Heir to.".

So, I've been sitting on my hands for the past week, doing way too much reflection on everything....

But on the other hand, we could be putting in some form of bottom, that has a chance of holding for more than 2 months... Not sure we can get our hopes up for more than three.

Just to through out some.... Thoughts on the economy. Many out there blame all of this on....."Whatever"... Bush, Greenspan, Wallstreet, Citigroup, Fiat money...... Bla Bla Bla... Y'all know me(sort of). We are the ones responsible.

I can go on for hours about the state of Socio-Economics. Regardless of "right wing vs. Left wing" Economics/Politics.... I can take issue with One thing on one side, or one thing on the other side. Good things about having Credit, bad things..... Bla bla bla..

You have to think that ... in a Macro macro way, there is just something fundamentally wrong with our society.... and by our, I don't just mean the USA. We have become a global society. There is just this Huge problem with us, Where People who work hard everyday, can't get ahead. And where .... ScumSucking... Soda-suckers. Are constantly at it, doing everything they can, to work less, and get more...... You have to think that at one point "Natural Selection" will just get the better of us.

I was working for a company, a while back, and they offered me a job to run this department. They said, "We have our current guy and we want to promote him, Then you can run his department under him.".... I was like... Ok, So There is the "Owner". Then there is the "Head of the Section", Then we have this guy who is going to be the head of the Department, I'm going to be Head of individual Projects, Then there are the 2 guys that do the work..... So you have 2 guys doing work, and 4 people in charge of them.... Of course since I actually work, that is 3 guys doing work, supporting 3 guys who don't work, and are just "in charge". I've always assumed a 5 to 1 management ratio. one guy manages 5 departments, each of those "Department heads" manages 5 projects, those 5 projects have one boss and 5 employees....
So we have one extra position, and about 25 too few people.... This will go far... Me- I'd say fire 2 managers, or get them doing "work"...

Furthermore, We all understand the Management structure which more clearly follows the "Dilbert Principle", than the "Peter Principle" Where, the More productive an employee is, the more likely there is somebody riding his coat tales or taking credit for his work. As Political structures tend to breed Politicians, and not Productivity

I've worked in places where 20K is spend arguing about a 3K dollar problem.

These are unsustainable models for an economy. And need to be flushed out... Companies that have 50 bosses for 3 employees... need to go belly up.... but it would be better if this happened slowly, so the economy can make needed adjustments, and not Seize up.

No tax cuts, Spending programs or Bailouts or "paradox of thrift" or Etc or Austrian economics, is going to save us..... I guess like all things... It's up to 'us'... and no amount of Assinine "Harry Ried, Larry Kudlow, Nancy Pilosi, Mitch Mcconal, Richard Shelby" Asshatery is ....

To tie the points together... Congress needs to "Be Productive".. and not their usual "finger pointing" "name calling" "pass the buck"..... None of that will work, they have to all get together and come up with Solutions. But again, we run into the problem with our society... It's easier to Nay-Say, and Tear down... Others, than it is to .. Do the Work.

I have this comment about when people spend a ton of time "Fighting about things"... That it's obvious they don't have enough work to do, if they have enough time to fight about it.

and in my opinion, that is the problem, and until we understand that we are sad, pathetic, Ridiculous, People.... With their heads so far up our own asses.... Will we be able to actually solve problems... As opposed to "Argue about them".... And that "we all need to get to work"

I've got the funk

Everybody has been posting about the funk...

I just realized I have it right now..... I'm so inactive.

But .... Australian open.

Roddick beat Djokovic... Good for him, Sure Djokovic retired.... but that is also what he does instead of being beaten.

120 degrees at the open.. putting the hurt on all of them. mon petit lion, Alize Cornet... who I pointed out last year, managed 2 match points on Safina... Let me also point out that many people are finaly getting into better shape.... Roddick being one of them.

So.... Ya, that is about all I have... Let's all hope for Federer.... I want to see Nadal get schooled this year...

Some musings for a Saturday Afternoon

I umn.... Felt the Muse... I'm hoping this turns out well.

I was Laying down and had some thoughts.... I was thinking they were worth banging out..l.(I've escalated to 4 periods....).

Australian open starts tomorrow, That will be nice.

I was watching "Cross Creek", It's a good story though a sort of half assed movie. It's about Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings, who wrote "The yearling"... Roughly it's a Movie about a woman coming of age, Writing a story about a Girl coming of age in the context of a Deer coming of age. If that is enough Context for you.

She moves to Florida in 1928, from new york. This made me wonder what would have happened if she had waited a year and been caught up in the stock market crash. Of course I bet she did get caught up in the commodities crash that went with it, with her orange harvest and all.

I'm always reminded when I sit down at this blog... about how you can't go home again.... I swear I'm working on some kind of point. The story just reminded me that I should work on honing my .... Writing skills. I wish I would write short stories and publish them here. It's very strange how difficult I find it to write these days. I was just pondering if it had to do with an inability to focus on it. There are so many distractions, so many other things that my mind is contemplating.
The inauguration is on tuesday, It's very exciting... We all have so much hope. I was joking a few months ago. I'm a huge fan of not drinking the Koolaid, so to speak. I had this huge rant at the time of the Olympics about The Dalai Lama, When I saw some hippies do some lame protest in china. I don't want to argue this, but as far as Americans are concerned he is a "Cult of Personality", and for some Lame ass hippies to put up banners and "protest"... you ask yourself 'Why doesn't the Dalai lama do it. And you realize that it's not the way of the Buddha... and then you have to acknowledge that whoever this "hippy" is who is protesting in Tienanmen square, is so out of touch with what he actually believes. When in fact one can suggest based on Buddhism being kicked out of Tibet was the best thing that could have happened. Understanding that is part of the Enlightenment Buddhism allows. But... Had this Hippy lit himself on fire... That would have been something.
Jus to get to my point, having Blasted some Buddhist hippy, and the Lama for being part of a Cast system, and that selfishly Of course he and all his people would want to go back to a place where they were kings... But... I just figured it was only a matter of time before I started Badmouthing Obama.

Marx says that every age only asks the questions that it can answer. One might extrapelate from that every age elects leaders that reflect that time... Or maybe; what they want from that time.

Insomnia 3

I would pay good money for some nice sleep from say 10pm to 6am...

But nope.. Just bad T.V.

Insomnia 2

Well happy new year

You know how wild and crazy I am these days, fell asleep at about 5pm, Woke up at 9:30...

Yep sleep disturbance.... that is what they call it...

Every year I try and make it through all my holiday movies, Bad Santa, christmas vacation, scrooged, the ref.... The classics... I'd say Love actually, but you would think less of me...

I've managed this year to sleep through all of them, started every one, I wake up 3 or 4 hours later and it's over... or I wake up in the last 10 minutes or the credits....

kind of a jip...

I'm going to try "Trading places".... I'm hoping it puts me to sleep.

So... Julie was talking about Ruth's.....

I umn There was a time when I went on this date and we went to ruth's. This is just a great example of how charming I am.

So, we sit down... and the date is going badly... It's one of those dates where you just know that for some reason she agreed to go, but somehow had decided it was over before it had even begun. She was kind of snobby and uninteresting.

We are outside at ruth's and the appetizer showed up After a few minutes she noticed a bug had landed on the appetizer, I saw that look in her eyes and she was going to make a scene.

I looked her straight in the eyes, Looked down at the bug Grabbed it and threw it in my mouth, and washed it down with my Beer.

I kid you not, We didn't say one more word... ate dinner, and I took her home.