Let the Demons Chase

I sometimes spell that Daemons... It's not a misspelling BTW.

Strange things are Afoot for the old mop.

Turbo Caught me, in a joke about some of my "lesser Persona's" Which sounds odd. Well, I can say it actually is odd. Our lives are filled with Archetypes, as a smart person suggested, these are our WWE or WCW Wrestling Persona's. We show different ones to different people. We can Create some for some people. We may have our Work Persona, or our Friend Persona. Maybe our persona we show a Lover.

Somewhere, in all of that is our Real Self. If you don't realize, "The Mop" I hope is my Real Self. The problem has always been, if you Knew me, I could never Be ME!. One must strap on that Persona, and Guard themselves like a Suit of armor...

but I don't have to explain myself to you...

An old friend of my, was hurt last weekend. I probably have to make contact, even though... it's not like we had a falling out, more a falling away. Just a something you move away from, because it's easier. There is Epic Back story. (I'm trying not to use the phrase Epic, but have yet to come up with a new Phrase). So I'm still thinking about it, I guess I'm not even sure I want to make contact. Of course if I don't that will be it, for the relationship, for certain. That and about 4 other Associations... I'm just a dick these days, and as far as I was concerned, it was all just better to move away from.

Then.... I seem to be Smitten again... Smitten with a Mitten... I don't fucking know... but it rhymed. She is very Charming, and ... my number one problem is that; I'm still a fucking mess. Not that ... There is that phase where you are a mess, and you don't know it. Though I'm a Fucking mess, I know it... and that is always the first step to putting things back together. It's one of those things where, it's currently scaring the shit out of me, because she seems very ... "made for me".. I find these kinds of romantic Notions ... Stupid. But I do think that in the course of a 40 year life, you would think that finding the yin to your yang is probable.

Of course she is very much more "Together" than I am.... Which just adds to my insecurity.

I wrote last night to a Dear friend about it all, and that this is one of those times that it feels like the Universe is telling me something(which I don't believe in. That the universe talks, not that there is a universe.) But These 2 things, sort of feel like the 2 Keys to getting my ... emotional disaster from the past few years, Solidly back on the Rails.

Then there is my rational side, that says... you just need better sleep, some Vitamins, and this is all just a BioChemical response to getting back on the "workout wagon" in a serious way. Even though, if you saw my workouts, you would laugh... I know I do.

From Shit and Piss we are born.

I tell you the Ok part of this.

It's to be Sort of 'In love' again.

Of course we all know how that last one turned out...

Oh... BTW Sarah got Married... last spring, I believe. I'm sure you all were dying to know how that turned out.

Late, on a saturday night

My girl Justine was beaten at the Australian Open. Even more than wanting her to win, what I would like is for her to enjoy herself. No more, sad face Justine.

When she quit she said,

"I cannot play one more tournament,

not one more match,

not one more set,

not one more game."

And she gave it up.

On her return, it seems like she wants to enjoy herself, and I'd love to see it.

I'm sitting here, nothing on the TV.... what was I going to whine about...

I found out last week, I'm just about persona non Grata with a group of former associates. I found something out, and called some of them to see what they knew about one of the people in that group. I tried to contact 6 people, not one of them got back in touch with me, after leaving messages. Tip to toe a bunch of jackasses anyways. Honestly, it looks like a place I used to provide services for, is working on collapsing, this was why I left. I wasn't about to keep them going at my expense. Which was why we parted ways, "Can't you just... Not eat, that would be easier than us, knowing how to run a business, You should just provide free services to us... That is easiest."

What goes through you people's heads

well that post went no where....

Head Banging

I'm going to sit here and bang my head against the Keyboard, see what happens. J.D. Salinger died yesterday. What you may consider odd is that I actually like Franny and Zooey better than 'Catcher in the Rye', I suspect it's because I wasn't encouraged to read 'Catcher'.

If you don't realize it, with all the deaths right now of our elderly, it's just that time of year where the sedentary nature of winter, and the cold takes a toll on all our bodies, and unfortunately some of them us just give out.

This Teaparty thing, There is a certain amount of it that is populist rage. I don't mean to belittle anyones legitimate gripe about just about anything and everything that goes on, but I would suggest that most of it has to do with not having a job. Then somehow we then have to mix in the exploitation of the politicians, be they Democrat, Republican, or Libertarian.

What is really going on is a return of the John Birch Society. If you don't know your political history, The John Birchers were Lunatics that didn't believe in Fluoridation of water, because it was creating mind control.(I'd grant an argument that there could be long term health effects of fluoridation, but Brainwashing isn't one of them.). BTW I'm now sure some asshole Bircher is going to show up to defend them. Fuck off in advance. To get back to my point, what it required for the crazies to get out of the party, and for the republican party to return to rationalism, was the single most respected conservative William F. Buckley to launch "The National Review" to challenge the lunatics, and get their party back. This is how you will know that republicans are on a solid rise, you should see a new WFBuckly show up, and take on the Glen Becks and Sarah Palin.

Not that I wouldn't shove my dick in Sarah Palin, A gag would be required... and a riding Crop.

But I digress.....

I have some very negative comments about Our president right now, If I break it down to a game of 21. It seems like POTUS just doubled down on a 15. The best thing in the world would be if the midterm elections aren't a BloodBath, maybe with some luck for every 2 democrats lost, republicans lose one....

I realized the last few months, or maybe a year ago that much of my writing is sort of a mix of my favorite Writers. Catch this list, and maybe you will realize why I write the way I do:

Hunter S. Thompson

Hemingway

Salinger

Dickens

... If it isn't apparent, I've read everything by Hunter twice, and some of his books I've gone through 3 different copies of the same paperbacks, I wonder if there are some Hardbacks.

I've been reading more fiction, which seems to be loosening up my Muse....

..... and Speaking of a Loose Muse....

Damn, I almost misspelled "loose", the funny part is I pulled it off in loosening, then skrewed it in loose.

Some of you never followed my "in between" blog careerer, there was a period of time where I didn't have anything to blog about, so I spent time doing Soft Core Porn Reviews... Which makes me think, I should start that blog back up again.

Shit! I think I left Charles Bukowski off of my list.

Well, if this was an homage to Salinger.... I'd have to apologize.

bla bla bla

Everything is technical for me right now.

It’s all documentaries, and computer code.

Science and no art

If you want the Crazy talk,

It seems to me, that in some kind of quarterly sense, we are at an inflection point. We have a point where the great, cosmic living breathing animal, that is us.

Well, we have lost it.

All Sense of our Pretend Rationalism.

All Pretence of human decency.

Locked in our ideologies.(this is like a bad lyric)

The band that plays the songs of Hate and greed in our head is now playing their set. Given time they will walk off the stage, and a new one will begin.

6 days to the Ausie Open

Well, I'm excited...

Not only do we have Kim Clijsters, who came back last year, but my girl Justine has come back this year, I don't even know how many years she has been gone? 2? 3years?

In the Warm up... as I like to call the tournament that precedes the following open, Justine in her first tournament back, really took it to kim in the Final, got her to several match points after being heavily on the ropes in the first 2 sets. The match was absolutely amazing.

Lucidity is overrated

Took a nap, woke up cranky.

I'm reflecting on, changes for 2010. Over the past 10 years, due to getting older, wanting to be more responsible, maybe even improve the quality of my life. I've given up many things in that time, Vices shall we say. I guess I still drink a few times a year.

Here is the Rub, I'm just more angry. I remember when I was 16 or so, and started down "The Dark Path"

It was easier to be less aware.

I wanted more out of this post...

But I do think that I may make one of those lame resolutions, I resolve to not even try and date in 2010.

Maybe another thing I'll give up, that .... won't be a positive thing.

The perfect shoe

The perfect Shoe, for every David Tennant Doctor Who Fan.

Where were we?

... It's been so long. Y'all don't understand the stress I've been under for the past... Seems like a Decade. I'm very surprised my hair isn't white at this point. The market is like a war. Yet, if you play it like a game, it's not that complicated.

I've learned so many things, so many amazing and eye opening things. I literally have no idea how these dopes that seem to be at the head of things have stayed there so long. So, many fools and morons; filled with mythology, illusions, and an entire lack of intellectual integrity or curiosity. People who effectively bounce around like pin balls from one bumper in the great pinball game to another.

My brain is so scattered, but with the holiday I've had a chance to rest... Rebuild the old synapses. I've been tempted to write some short stories. I have a bunch of ideas, I think it would be fun to get some of them published, or at least try.

So, the horror show is this;

Seems like I'm on a 'Rebirth' for a new year, I refuse to have it be a new years thing. Yet it feels like it's game on. Time to get back to Salads and Coffee and Soup... and a need to earn my dinner.

Feels like a new age for "The mop" and whatever persona's I decide to play in this game we call Reality.

But what I really need;

Are some Converse Runners!

I'm a Weiner!

Ya, We knew that.

The Great T-Bird!! Has been doing contests, I've avoided them since... What if I win?. And I like a good contest, especially on the computer. Y'all are just fooling yourself, thinking you can win.

So, he announces the time, I was hoping for some kind of riddle, like the Riddle of the Sphinx:

Any time someone talks about a riddle, be ready to say "Man". It's the original Answer to the original Riddle.

No Dice! He asked what his original road bike was. I said, well he twittered it, and I clicked on his name to get all his tweets, then as It was coming up, I remembered that it was from Christmas Day.

Dec 25th, and sure enough A burgundy Peugeot Ventoux.

That is one nice bike especially for 23 years ago.

Stephen Roche won Le Tour

Which is the year after LaMond couldn't defend because of the shooting accident

What did you Get me day!

Here it is... just a few hours left of the APEX of this Vial time of the year. The second of the Three worst holidays on the calender. Long time readers of this blog Might remember, Let me cover the past Christmas Exploits.

Let us just start with some facts:

I have a few nieces, one nephew

a brother sister and both parents.

There are more, but I some of my immediate family just don't count.

I did learn something this year, Our society says that you only get gifts for Immediate family, everyone else gets cards.

• First annoying Christmas. My Sister in Law, because i'm good with wood, Thought I should build her a 500 CD Rack. That would only take a good Week of my free time. But what does it mater to her, Right? My answer to this was that All Christmas lists needed to be submitted by E-Mail(she didn't have e-mail) I want to point out that. Every Christmas I generally didn't give gifts Just my brother and his wife, I picked up things for each of them, and all of my brothers STEP KIDS!... but that and a CD Rack.
• One year, I purchased my sister parts for a new computer. The deal was, that she spent a day with me, Putting it together. My sister Unemployed, couldn't manage to find a job. Had Limited skills. So... She complains "I don't want to do that", I said "Ok, I'll just take it all back." *pout Moan* Can't you do it for me. We put it together and I took her through it step by step. Except for some reason she didn't have her modem drivers. I explained how to install them and sent her on her way. 2 days later she calls me in a Hissy fit... "THIS DOESN'T WORK"!!! I told her to bring it to me and I'd fix it. "NO! YOU COME HERE!" Do you see what drives me up the wall. There are tons of these people! They think it's a negotiation. Some how I owe it to her now! I told her she was going to come here or I wasn't going to do it. I again mentioned that I was happy to take it back.
• Then there was the year that, I'm at the parents home, and we want to have that nice sit around and talk time. On Christmas Eve. My niece pulls a fit, Basically she wanted to just grab her presents and run off. I told her that the next year we would put the presents on the street and they could just pick them up as they passed.
• Then there was the Christmas my brother got me the newest book of Sean Hanity Lies. It was second edition, so the things that he had Lied about, had retractions after the chapters. Basically it was Chapter-Retraction which effectively nullified the whole book.
• My sisters husband, who's birthday is Christmas EVE, Because he was forgotten every year. I got him Golf Clubs, one year.
• after all of this About October a few years back, my sister came over with my niece and they both decided to just be a couple awful Bitches. At that point I turned to my sister and my niece, and said "No more Christmas", and it's been over ever since.
• With my family, I don't even try and play nice anymore. I never bite my tongue, always tell them when they say something stupid, use a word out of context, spurious logic. I live to Correct them, about anything. They can't stand to be around me. Once or Twice a year, they Try and either make up or see if they can stand to be around me, and it doesn't work.
• This year every time one of them said Christmas to me, I said "Christmas is for Kids, and People with Kids"

After 2 or 3 years of No Christmas, It's official... Finally the Grinch Got no Christmas Gifts. Why? as it was Clear to me, after going through this bullshit, being single and still spending $200-$500 per year on Christmas over 35 years of my life.

IT'S ALL ABOUT THE PRESENTS. ALL THE REST IS BULLSHIT!

Christmas to me, is a Very Quiet day, I get and extra Weekend day to read and watch movies. BTW, I managed to not watch a Single Christmas movie, The closest I came to Christmas was going shopping in department stores Twice in the past month, Any time anything Christmas like came on TV in the past month, the channel was changed.

and if I'm Lucky nobody stops by.

My favorite uncle, who's kids hated him, and when they turned 18 he didn't get to spend time with them. He and I used to go skiing on Christmas, that wasn't a bad way to spend Christmas.

I had an old boss, who had one daughter and an Ex-Wife. He used to buy himself a bottle of scotch big enough that he would get up... start drinking and not remember the 25th at all.

Now lets talk about New years.... There was the Knife Fight, the time when my Ex used to work the day before, the Day of New years Eve and the day After.

To me these have always been, just days off... that nothing is open.

Trying to make these days anything else is just a mistake waiting to happen.

War is Over(if you want it)

I saw this: Tell me that it doesn't put this Christmas bullshit in perspective.

Meditate on how true it is now,

as it was in 1969

When John and Yoko started their Peace Project.

WAR IS OVER!(if you want it.)

Give the video a minute to really get going

Seems like Yoko posted this video Jan 1 2007, and this was her note:

http://imaginepeace.com/new... December 8, 2007 I miss you, John. 27 years later, I still wish I could turn back the clock to the Summer of 1980. I remember everything - sharing our morning coffee...

40 years since this campaign in 1969!

Health Care

Here is another rant. This is why Health care is important. These are some of the issues that most people are ignorant of.

Let me establish some Facts.

Average health care costs are $12,000 per Family.

• The cost to an individual, paying out of pocket, for Health care is Between $500-$1000 a MONTH.

1. For $500 you get Basic Health care, The kind of health care you get when you work somewhere Miserable, and the company you work for just wants to say they have Coverage.
2. For $250 a month you can get coverage with about $2000 deductible.
3. For $1000 You get comprehensive coverage, and a minor plan deductible, Congress would call it a Cadillac plan, or the kind of plan Members of the Federal Government get, or People who work for GE, or work for a Union

• In the next 7 years the cost of Health care is expected to Double.$24,000
• The middle 33% of the population make GROSS 29,000-66,000 Per household. That is $15,000-$33,000 per person.
• If you Net out Health care, that is $17,000-$54,000 Per Household IS THE MIDDLE CLASS that is a 300% difference from lower to upper middle class. And think about living on $17,000 per year($8500 per individual) or $1,400 per month or $324 per week, that is enough money to pay bills and own a car YIPEE you are middle Class! Now I'd suggest you are broke.

Now a Story:

About 10 years ago, I wanted to expand my business. once I looked into if I had a chance of clearing another $30,000 to Hire someone else, there was then the other $10,000 to get them health care.

That is 25% of their wage in Health care, which looks to double in the next 10 years. For the past 10 years the reason Wages haven't risen is because Health care HAS DOUBLED. In 10 years there is a chance that half of your compensation will be in health care.

THIS IS UNSUSTAINABLE. Most of the economic growth in this country over the past 10 years has been small business, Most of whom just hired workers and didn't provide health care. HEALTH CARE IS THE NUMBER ONE REASON BUSINESS CAN'T EXPAND.

PEOPLE ASK? Why is HEALTH CARE IMPORTANT?

It's holding our economy back, businesses will not be able to keep going on like this, health care an insurance will implode over the next 20 years. But congress doesn't care about small business, what they care about are SPENDING MONEY ON WAR! and Making sure that the SENATOR FROM HARTFORD INSURANCE(Lieberman), and from Blue Cross Blue Shield(Orin hatch). Are taken care of, and that Exxon Is taken Care of. BUT SMALL BUSINESS get FUCKED. It's almost like there is an effort to make sure that my small company, can't compete with the larger ones. In the next 10 years, the only companies able to afford insurance will be companies Like GE and Exxon and fuck you if you work for any company that isn't an international conglomerate, or State or Fed Gov. and you get sick... Bankrupt is what you will be.

Everybody Deserves a little Chive!

Well

I was going to give up for the day, but things are starting to get exciting.

As I was contemplating what to do with my day, I thought; I should ride my bike. I looked outside and realized that wasn't going to happen...

and the thought hit me....

MAYBE it is time to break out the rollers!

What a horror show, a towel under the bike, one on the bike. Me in shorts and a base layer for sweat. Movie in the DVD....

and an hour of "hippo on a tightrope"

JESUS!!! and I'm considering it... Maybe I should just go eat some pie!

There it was...

There it was, for a brief moment I was inspired. My Muse had me Firmly in it's grips as I day dreamed in front of the T.V., this morning.

And then it Slipped Away.

Befuddled... let me look that up. Yep

Befuddled, this posed deteriorates into this:

My diet is crazy right now. I seem to be living on oranges and Coffee with EggNog as a Creamer. I'd best take a Multivitamin. But I've been feeling Very good... so don't knock it till you try it.Ok, I get some Soup in there somewhere.

This Book has been torturing me for Months, I'm having Brief glimpses of brilliance, followed by periods of "my life interfering with consistent Meditative Focused Thought, to the point where I want to do that little thing where you place your index finger across and between your lips and make a sound similar to the one Twiggy made on the 1980's buck Rogers. bdbabudabuda...

Truth is before I get into anything but the roughest of drafts, I have got to learn how to write.

I just want to confess, I spent a lot of time sleeping in English Class. Sentence structure on the Written page, makes me confused. I've become a huge fan of just using random Punctuation!!

There is a book somewhere right? and Idiots guide to writing? or Fundamentals of punctuation? Honestly if someone Literate could point me in a direction. I would very much appreciate it.

Well, that is it for"Today in the life of my Colon and other such Ramblings".

Music

I say this all the time:

Most the blogs I post to, I only interface through the blogger dashboard. I can go months without going to the Actual page.

when I do:

Suddenly I'm all "DAMN!!! SOMEBODY HAS GREAT TASTE IN MUSIC!!"

Useless facts

... I found this site.

301 Useless facts, but interesting. I do wonder; Why I find them interesting.

• 6. Your stomach produces a new layer of mucus every two weeks so that it doesn’t digest itself.
• 10. The dot over the letter “i” is called a tittle.
• 12. Benjamin Franklin was the fifth in a series of the youngest son of the youngest son.
• 14. A female ferret will die if it goes into heat and cannot find a mate.
• 21. Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history: Spades = David ; Clubs = Alexander the Great ; Hearts = Charlemagne ; Diamonds = Caesar
• 22. 40% of McDonald’s profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.
• 29. On average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents every day
• 34. Playing cards were issued to British pilots in WWII. If captured, they could be soaked in water and unfolded to reveal a map for escape
• 43. If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die. If you keep your eyes open by force, they can pop out. (DON’T TRY IT, DUMBASS)
• 53. Coconuts kill about 150 people each year. That’s more than sharks.
• 54. Half of all bank robberies take place on a Friday.
• 57. The first bomb the Allies dropped on Berlin in WWII killed the only elephant in the Berlin Zoo.
• 61. Bruce Lee was so fast that they had to slow the film down so you could see his moves.
• 65. The mask used by Michael Myers in the original “Halloween” was actually a Captain Kirk mask painted white, due to low budget.
• 67. The phrase “rule of thumb” is derived from an old English law, which stated that you couldn’t beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb.
• 73. The first product Motorola started to develop was a record player for automobiles. At that time, the most known player on the market was Victrola, which Motorola got their name from.
• 80. 28% of Africa is classified as wilderness. In North America, its 38%.
• 81. Charlie Chaplin once won third prize in a Charlie Chaplin look-alike contest.
• 90. The Guinness Book of Records holds the record for being the book most often stolen from Public Libraries.
• 91. Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are already married.
• 104. People photocopying their buttocks are the cause of 23% of all photocopier faults worldwide.
• 110. Everyday, more money is printed for Monopoly sets than for the U.S. Treasury.
• 117. Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times.
• 131. Two-thirds of the world’s eggplant is grown in New Jersey.
• 132. For every memorial statue with a person on a horse, if the horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died of battle wounds; if all four of the horse’s legs are on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
• 138. Almonds are members of the peach family.
• 147. “101 Dalmatians” and “Peter Pan” are the only Disney animations in which both of a character’s parents are present and don’t die during the movie.
• 149. Hedenophobic means fear of pleasure.
• 187. Donkeys kill more people than plane crashes.
• 220. Al Capone’s business card said he was a used furniture dealer.
• 254. People say “bless you” when you sneeze because your heart stops for a millisecond.
• 259. The bestselling books of all time are The Bible (6billion+), Quotations from the Works of Mao Tse-tung (900million+), and The Lord of the Rings (100million+)
• 266. Johnny Appleseed planted apples so that people could use apple cider to make alcohol
• 291. Stephen Hawking was born exactly 300 years after Galileo died.
• of course the most charming fact would be that the list of facts is probably more urban legend

No rest for the Wicked

Was it only one week ago that Tiger woods drove his car into a tree and it started a week of Gavel to gavel coverage.

On Fridays, I'm completely exhausted.... in a way you would have no idea. I could catch a nap at about 3pm, but then I'd wake up at like 9pm and then climb the walls till about 9am then fall back asleep. Or I try and drag it out, problem is I tend to just be too exhausted to sleep, either that or it's that last cup of coffee. I fall asleep then wake up at the Great and Productive hour of 3am on saturday morning!!!!

Seriously, I'd fucking Kill to sleep in Until 7 or 8 am.

I of course have decided that all my Tiger news will come from Apple news Daily from Taiwan, who do computer reenactment and have funny sentence structure.

Seems like Tiger is learning a sort of MC hammer lesson, about how there is a point you become a lottery ticket for everyone around him. The Extra Funny part is that aparentley Tiger had a deam about Rachel and her having a 3 some with Derik Jeter and David Boreanez.... Doesn't that seem like a Fantisy she would have, and not him...

I guess it's possible that the Dream was that she had sex with them Separately, but in the mind of the Chinese, these Hollywood types are crazy. It's hard to argue!

Here is the Newest!

TIger Woods

I'm about ready to turn the news off. I mean Forever, or at least until this Tiger Woods obsession is over... I don't mean to hope for war or something, but is the news this fucking slow.

I just don't feel like I need an update every hour about where tiger's dick has been.

The real problem is I spend my day reading and watching news. So update 7 on tiger after hour 7 of my news day... is a little much..

ok that is all I can stand to blog.

Somebody said "well you aren't a golf fan"... I'm a cycling fan, and I REALLY don't give a shit who Lance or floyd are fucking... Hell I barely care what poisons they are ingesting, to make themselves better.

1 down 2 to go

Well, the first holiday is tomorrow. Yipeee...

eh... I had a whole whine I was going to work up.. I think I'd rather lay down and take a shower or something..